lala     big bear

熊雯    到

lala     why do you use english to write your blog

熊雯    it's obvious that i want to find a foreign husband

lala     肯定都是一群中国傻男人看你的blog

熊雯    so,i must change the environment

   ......

      Haha,it's just a joke.but not  as follows:

lala      i want to live easier,life is such heavy

熊雯     i saw a talkshow on tv the day before yesterday, face to face".

lala      en

熊雯     the guest is Yudan

lala     uhum

熊雯    I found she is a chramful woman

lala     what's going on

熊雯    I want to study from her,and may be I will change something

lala     which part?

熊雯    to find a brighter road

lala     come on

熊雯    i can't think problems which no answers everyday

lala     problems which no answers?

熊雯    i want to do some meanningful things to me at present

熊雯    because everything have two sides

lala    sure

lala    the answer is not exclusive

熊雯   when i see the two sides,i can't find my directions.

lala    sometimes we can't find the "right one"

lala    just "appropriate one"

lala    well one

.........

       May be I found my another shortcomings in the dialogue.

       I like this way to exchange  idea. It usually make me more clearly and to express my opinion more correctly,meanwhile the opponent's view may impact my thought, then summarize a new conclusion together.

      It's a nice process.

      希腊的大火已烧了4天，那曾令人向往地方和那被烧毁的森林.....人类的不幸。

    I was sunburn, as well as my old sister.

    Harvests as follows:

   Photo one:

    Monkeys.At  DaRongShu.

   How familiar with the scene.When I was very young,I usually saw  monkeys at roadside with my mother.They wearing costumes perfomed to earn some money for their host.But few of stander-by give them pay,including my mother.I guess that's why we hard to meet these monkeys now.Haha.

   It's so insteresting.

  Photo two:

   My older sister ,I and  a double-bike at the foot of MoonMountain.

   I long for ride double-bike many times.The dream come true today,with my dear sister.Although there are some difficult to us,sister can't ride a bicycle and I can't carry man.In any case,we beat ouesleves successfully.

Photo Three:

   The big fish on my neck.

   I found it in a small shop on West Street yesterday.I like it more and more.

  　刚听到于丹讲的一个故事：

　　新建的一座寺庙，佛像和台阶都是由花岗岩做成的。台阶对佛像说：“哼，我们都是花岗岩，凭什么我成天被人践踏，而你却高高在上”。佛像说：“你只被人切了四刀就来到现在的岗位，而我却经过了千刀万剐”

    Lao Liu laughed at me,"...you lack of society experience... "

    I'm ill-affected and unease at the very start, it seems that he intent to express"oh,you are so oldish and you are so babyish!"I do't understand what is society experience and how to change the state now.

    Improving experience is one reason I left home at one time.After two years,the result proves the failure?

    Subsequently,I am clear slowly.It's because of my careless with the society.I dislike to think the society complicatedly,dislike to think the humanness  complicatedly.So,I don't spend any energy in these areas,I haven't got any fruit naturelly.

    Why I regret to what I don't mind things?It's ridiculous,isn't it?

    Experience help me to taste  flavour variousily,to understand life profoundly.Discover the world through my own eyes.

Underneath Your Clothes

You’re a song
Written by the hands of God
Don’t get me wrong couse
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them
Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey
Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I’m running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party’s over
We will still belong to each other
Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey
I love you more than all that’s on the planet
Movin" talkin walkin" breathing
You know it’s true
Oh baby it’s so funny
You almust don’t believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady to her good manners
I’m tied up to this feeling
Underneath your clothes
There’s an endless story
There’s the man I chose
There’s my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such agood gril honey

    Enjoy  the song these days.

    Enjoy the tune at first,enjoy the voice then,enjoy the lyric at last.

   Because of you I forgot the smart ways to lie;Because of you I’m running out of reasons to cry
   When the friends are gone,When the party’s over,We will still belong to each other

   A woman sing her feeling when her fall in love with a man. Although the lyric looks very tender,the singer give us a different expression . 

   The crude voice reveals the sentiment of the firm conviction about love.May be this is just the distinction between Chinese and Westerners,or between Chinese women and Western women.Of course,both inherent reasons and  posteriority reasons,haha.

Happiness can't be found when we are yearning for new desires.

Each time you notice yourself falling into the "I wish life were different" trap, back off and start over. Take a breath and remember all that you have to be grateful.

Make a note of yourself to start thinking more about what you have than what you want. If you do, your life will start appearing much better than before. For perhaps the first time in your life, you'll know what it means to feel satisfied.

As these saying above,it's so easy to gained happiness as long as to be satisifed with what we have.It that all?

Although I usually allege to my friends that I am satisfied,it's hard to do than say for me actually.

I don't think it indicate that I am janus-faced,  but  because of the contradiction between ideality and reality.On the one hand I want to be a satisfied woman in idealtiy,on the other hand I am dissatisfied.Or I satisfy in some aspects,dissatisfy in others.

What is the meaning of "satisfy"?How to understand?I think I'am satisfy at present indeed,and  I feel there is a kind of invisible forces to promote me  progress.Satisfy is temporary,dissatisfy is eternal.

I suggest that there is no distinct borderline between satisfied and dissatisfied,neither are  there between any contradictorie on the world.May be it's only moderation.

But if there is no desire,what will happen to us and to the world? The old saying "six desires", get birth, death, the ears, eyes, mouth, nose.Passion and Desire are the impetus for moving forward society.

 Schopenhauer's saying,"Life is a burning desire, the desire to be met, that person boring; Desire not satisfied, on pain; Human life is always senseless and painful swinging back and forth between "He think desire and effort is the full essence of humanity.This is the unfortunate and painful source to human.

Happiness is so wonderful that everyone pursuit it.I suppose happiness is a goal,a terminus.It's a temptation to call me go ahead on and on. I am always on the way to achive it. So the life is only a process other than a goal.

Enjoy my  experience.

PS:

1、I get a unexpected gain today,about money.It's exciting.But it so ironical that it because of an unhappy experience.In any case, I should appreciate the lives.

2、听到一个笑话：小蛇很慌张地问大蛇哥哥.."哥哥，我们有没有毒？？"大蛇说:"你问这干吗？"小蛇说:"我刚才不小心把自己舌头咬到了。

  （提示：小蛇怕自己毒死自己了）

    接着，我把这个笑话讲给冰雪的大妈听，大妈“流汗”后，回我道：“小熊很慌张地问大熊哥哥.."哥哥，我有没有变胖？？"大熊说:"你问这干吗？"小熊说:"我刚才不小心把自己的手咬到了.”

 （提示：小熊吃到肉肉了，脂肪量高的咧）

   以上提示供智商低者参考。 

   It's a decision.Including write blogs from now on.Both in Chinese and English,the latter is priority.

   "You are in knot."Honghong said to me serveral months ago.Although I haven't got her messages for nearly one month.How about her new life in Singapore?I know you are also unclear which  things need to do and which things have to do in your lives just like me,but it's gratifying that we are all in exploring ceaselessly.

    Knot(纠结),a state get into the puzzle and confusion.May be you are right,may be everyone have to affront it.I usually knot without reason, in other words, I am puzzling while trying to seek an answer.At last,I find it's only endless loop.

    "Every man is his own worst enemy,"YiZhongtian exclamatory in the program of "Face To Face"which presided by Wangzhi this noon.

    No matter when and where,how to treat circumstance to one's surroundings almost depend on one's values.It's the power of soul that varies from person to person.

    I will do my best  to iron out  these knots.Fortunately,as things are,I'm  moving to the bright gradually.

.....

天凉了
挂念了
有从前还是好的
.....

和你的
记住了
虽然将来会尘封
说声好久不见
沉默了

       张学友的《好久不见》，反复听了快一周。不自觉地陷入回忆。如果重来，结局也一样。 尽管如此，还是无故的想起。灾难。

       这该死的热天气。灾难。      

     我要在武汉办理个人社保帐号。开始老实的面对现实，积极和社会建立关联。

     于是，一系列的嵌套游戏开始了：

    1、在网上查到武汉社保洪山分点的电话号码，拨过去对方告知另一号码，曰“武汉社保结算中心”办理社保转入手续。

    2、立刻电话询问此中心，得知我03年在武汉交过，05年在南京交过，并正当年，于是很轻松的回答只要带户口本去办理即可。满以为政府办事儿其实也不太复杂。

    3、次日，好不容易在一嘎达找到这个中心。一小哥查到我并没有在武汉办理养老但有医疗和失业保险的怪事，站我后面一老哥说“莫可能咧，茂得养老其它保险是不能办滴......”小哥也纳闷。太后好像醒悟了“说不定你是在湖北社保中心办理的”。

    4、立刻打电话询问以前的公司确认我的帐号办理处。人事处回答“你现在的帐号在湖北社保，不过要转个人窗口需要拿身分证和一张照片，到我们这里办一些手续..........”。

    5、再次日，到原公司填表格，贴照片。还没松口气，得知需要档案所在地的证明。立即打电话回南京，人事部门答:档案在人才中心，大概10天后才会去那里办事，顺便帮我问问看（也不知道会不会有结果）。假设顺利，可将证明传真到武汉的公司人事处。

    6、接下来，假设武汉公司将我的申请上报到集团公司统一办理顺利，过半个月可以拿到个人的凭证。届时，拿此证明去湖北省社保结算中心个人窗口办理相关手续。

    7、再接下来，假设中心办理顺利，找中心要一份带公章的开户帐号证明快递至南京公司，南京公司的人事处将按此帐号将南京帐号和新帐号合并。

     据我目前所知，这件事情就应该可以了了。至于日复一日何时才了，无法预知。

     先写下来，备忘。

      吊带短裤凉拖，是最近的嗜好；安于现在吃吃喝喝睡睡。到了这个年纪，外表不再是增加自信的砝码。

      不管社会是在进步还是在退步，不想和它有太多关联。可是，“当灯光照过来时我就必须要唱出那最最艰难的一幕”。而且，“曲终人散后不管我是要哭泣着或是微笑着与你道别，我都会庆幸曾与你同台”。结果，谁演得好，谁获得的掌声就热烈。

      无论有否终点，有否意义，有否价值，是理想。永远面对的，是现实。

      “谁比谁清醒，所以，谁比谁残酷。”